I never thought my name would be so important
I never thought something as simple as a name
Could make me question where I came from
I never believed that Arielle could so freaking hard to pronounce that i would have to shorten it to Arie
Now that is all I am known as
Not Arielle
Not שושנה אילנה
My name is my source of pride
It is
French
English
Hebrew
Even Italian
(I’m not Italian)
In jewish Ashkenazi tradition
you name your kid after someone
who’s dead
But in christain tradition you name your kid some name like
Paul
Mary
Peter
Something old
Nothing new
Um no offense
I want to be
Me
Not
The II
Or the III
Not the IV
I've experienced anti-semitisem
A lot of it.
Because of that almost no one calls me שושנה אילנה
Or ariel
ariel is the traditional hebrew pronunciation for
Male
And female
It’s not the little mermaid
I let people think that
Even supported it
It is a Lie
I want my name to be
MINE
But I have scars.
I can’t forgive
I can’t forget
I’m stuck in Limbo
Unable to make a decision
Let me
Live
Let me
Choose
Let me
Be
ME